These days...

You turn on the news and lately all you see is people shooting other people for no reason. Mothers killing their babies, dads killing children's mother while his son watches, people entering hospitals killing people, man upset his wife wants a divorce so he ties her to a chair puts her outside so she can watch her house burn with him and their daughter inside. Newlyweds and either the wife kills the husband or the husband kills the wife. What is wrong with people? You are to have children because you want them, if you happen to get pregnant but can't handle children don't keep them give them a good home they deserve that, don't kill them because you were drunk, high, or just because. Don't get married if you didn't like the man or woman they deserve to be happy not dead. Don't go on a random shooting spree for stupid reasons and kill innocent people who happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

This world is falling apart and everyone is terrified. Your kids cant play in the backyard as you prepare dinner because in a split second someone is there abducting them.You only see negative stories on the news and that excites people. No I want to turn on the news and see Eugena turning 102, people helping people, people making a difference in other peoples lives. Instead of showing the people who died serving our country(proud of them) but you never show the ones that have survived maybe lost a limb or two or are in perfectly good health, they all saw people die let them share their stories. How about the people that travel to other countries to give children food, shelter, clothing, and a proper education. There is so much good stuff out there but since that is never shown we forget it exists so we thrive off the shootings, stabbings, car crashes, and that's just plain pathetic.

We need an upgrade!

Driving around Cortland disgusts me, the people, the buildings, and the obvious drug activity. My grandpa always tells us stories about what Cortland used to look like, what businesses they use to have, and I have seen many pictures, what happened to that?! Oh maybe because in the subways in NYC there is graffiti that reads "if you are looking for easy welfare go to Cortland." My dad's friend lives down there and he told us about that, what a shame. That is so embarrassing and with welfare comes drugs and with drugs comes crime, everything we do not need. I think welfare needs to be harder to get and you can only be on it for a certain time, then you need to be able to support yourself. If Cortland was safer, cleaner, and had more to offer maybe I would stay here, but it doesn't. Homer is getting just as bad, if you get expelled from Cortland you get shipped to Homer, you moving to Homer isn't going to make you change your ways. You come here and you give it a bad rep, get expelled here, and move on to the next town, what a life. Homer is just as druggy, maybe not as noticeable but we have it, so wake up people, make a difference in the town! Instead of being so dang concerned about no hydrofracking how about cutting down on crime and welfare focus on that then go to hydrofracking. I am sure that many towns are full of drug activity but with all the bath salt weirdness and people eating other people, I hope people in Homer don't have that yet because next thing you know we will be making the news in a bad way, wouldn't want that. 


Another thing is food, in Cortland and Homer all we have to offer is pizza, pizza, and oh wait pizza. Some ice cream, Chinese, and more pizza. We need variety, some hot dog and hamburger places local, and just variety. I have to go Syracuse just to get a good meal, that's no fun traveling all the way up there. We need things to do all we have is bowling, mini golf, and a crappy movie theater. Most people go to Ithaca or Syracuse just to see a movie, pathetic. I don't really have any ideas of what to add to make Cortland more fun but people seem to fill their boredness with parties full of drinking and drugs, what ever floats their boat. Maybe if there was more to do that would be reduced a little or maybe not because that's what they choose to do so they would probably always do that. 

Here's to the future...

Senior year is here and school is almost done for us. Homer was a great place to live and get an education. I had wonderful teachers that helped me grow into the wonderful person I have become. Like a lot of people I will be heading off to continue my life. I cannot wait to go to college and become something I have always dreamed of becoming. Helping people is something I love to do, I know that some days I may think my life sucks, but in reality someone out there has it a lot worse than I do. My goal in life is to find those individuals that have it worse than me and do whatever I can to help change that. I plan on moving away to a warmer state, Alabama, preferably. When there I am going to become a social worker whether it be in a school or a hospital. I would also like to open some type of place for less fortunate families to go. I plan on having a home cooked meal every Sunday, a place where they can get counseling (from me), a place they can have homework help, and a place to relax and make new friends, that they can call family. I know that I am a big dreamer, but I am determined to follow my dreams and hopefully better the world around me. I would love to travel the world or United States helping those in need. I would like to help out at food kitchens, those are my priority, seeing the looks on peoples faces when they receive a hot meal, is priceless. Those are things you and I take for granted, other people have no idea if they will even receive a meal that day. I am thankful that I was raised the way I was, not expecting everything to be handed to me, those kids that have to have all the name brands and whatever else that is "in", need a reality check. Help others before you help yourself, words to live by right there.

What a Killer

Cancer is a horrible disease that enters the bodies of thousands of people every year. Some people survive it and other times cancer takes them to the grave. My grandma died from lung cancer, my grandpa died from stomach cancer, a family friend died from breast cancer and my aunt died from breast cancer. Watching someone go through cancer is the worst thing in the world. They have their good days and they have their bad days. My aunt got it, treated it, it came back, then it took her life a few months later. She never let it show that it had came pack and was spreading, she was exhausted from all the treatment that didn't seem to be helping, anyway we wouldn't have seen it coming. She was my favorite aunt, I considered her my second mom. Last April she was kind enough to take me to Orlando with her and we enjoyed it so much. A month later, a year ago today, she died. I always asked those why her?, why now?, etc. She was a kind woman and loved everyone that crossed her path. She was a bus driver, who loved her kids and that is what made her love her job. She missed out on the birth of her first grand child, and the first girl of the family, she would have loved her. I was told God lends you people to enjoy on Earth, but sooner or later he has to take them back home to where they belong. It is sad to say that most everyone has experienced the pain of cancer whether through themselves or a loved one, it is an awful disease that more and more people are getting and the treatment can't be found fast enough. 

Brother, Sister Bonding

When it comes to brother, sister bonding my brother and I go to car shows. Him and I travel all over central New York just to hit them up. We go to Syracuse, Little York, Cortland, Auburn, Norwich, and any others that he finds out about. It is something my brother, dad, and I normally do together, but this weekend my dad was out of town so I had to drive him to Norwich so he was still able to go to the car show. This car show was huge, so many cars to look at and so many old men. My brother has had a passion for old cars since he was about 12 I think and his dream is to buy an old fixer upper and make it his own. We go to these car shows so he sees all the possibilities of what the cars can look like and he likes to see which ones are for sale although he doesn't have the money to buy them he wishes he did. I love that this is his passion in life, my favorite part is looking at a car, asking questions, and he knows everything about any car you ask about. One day he is going to have older cars and I am going to be such a proud sister, plus I get to drive them around looking cool and all. We might not get along all the time, and when all he does is talk about cars, it can get annoying but in the end that is something him and I share interest in. I look at the car and see its beauty, he looks at the car and sees how great the engine is, how the fenders look, and pictures the car if he were to repaint it. Car shows will always be something my brother and I love to go to together and I am I lucky that most of them are in the summertime and I will be home from college and will still be able to attend them with him.

Craziest thing happened...

I was on Facebook one day and in someone status this guy named AJ Strauf was tagged and I was like no way he has my last name. I clicked on it and he has my same hair. It is long and curly just like mine, no one in my family has this hair, but a guy I don't know with my last name does. Are we twins separated at birth? Maybe. Anyway I went to the invasion and who was sitting two rows in front of me this AJ guy, he is real. It was like seeing a celebrity. He still had my same hair, he wore glasses, and no one in my family wears glasses either. He had a beard, one thing we don't have in common, and the same hair color. This is just plain strange. I really want to meet him, I think there is something we both don't know but someone knows the back story and isn't telling us. What are the chances of this.

We all have those moments when...

Music speaks to us. We all have those days when you are sitting in your car with the radio turned up loud, a song comes on the radio and it speaks right to you. Every word in the song relates to you and it's scary how much the words describe the situation good or bad you are going through. For example my aunt passed away from breast cancer and about 2 days after this song called I'm going to love you through it came on the radio by Martina McBride (yes I am a country music fan, go ahead hate me) the song talks about how she goes through surgery and now it's forced smiles and baggy shirts to hide what the cancer took from her... She just wants to feel like a woman again...she says she doesn't think she can do this anymore... Everything my aunt went through and said. Anyway there are thousands of songs that you hear and stop and say wow sounds like me or sounds like what I am going through. I think that is why so many people listen to music to relax because in the lyrics they find they aren't alone, other people are going through the same things they are.